Carol Elizabeth-Ann 's posts with tag: blog
Puas aku cuba menyelami makna sebenar 'CINTA'. Bukan kerana aku tidak pasti akan maksudnya, tapi ada kalanya, ia memang membingungkan. 
Bila kala CINTA datang dan mengaburi segala prasangka, ia juga pergi meninggalkan seribu tanda tanya.... dan hati yang luka tak terkata... Adakah ini semua kerana 'CINTA'? Ataupun kita, insan di dunia yang menyebabkan segalanya kerana nafsu, ketamakkan, ketidak setiaan, ketidakpuasan... Semuanya menghancurkan kesucian erti 'CINTA'.
I hate to blog about sad things but feel that I have to write something just to let it out. Today was a very depressing day. Woke up in a weird dream. I was left with only 80 cents in my pocket, no cellphone, no house key to go back home. I saw myself running frantically around the buildings in an unfamiliar place looking for public payphone, trying to contact my baby. Then, I woke up..... feeling all shitty and down.. THEN, my dad called me and ask if I managed to get hold of my brother. We have been trying to contact him since yesterday but to no avail. His cell phones, his gf's cell phone, his workplace. He just disappeared! What happened to him?? I'm agitated, worried, stressed...my dad kept bugging me for his news and I still can't contact him...until this morning. Apparently, he is okay. Was sleeping at home as it is his off day today. And he just returned from KL with his gf. He has no idea why we cannot reach him on his cell phone. Damn network!! Wasting my adrenaline.....*grrr* I'm lost... so lost....... Sometimes I wish I am the victim in the many horror movies I watched over the weekend. Just die horribly .... period. 
|  | I know I haven't updated my blog for weeks. My baby also said I never write anything about him anymore.. :-p
Ever since they banned access to Multiply in my office, I hardly do any update. I took a few pictures on our outings but have not post them up.
He reached Singapore on 23rd June (Saturday). I was at the airport waiting for him from 4.15pm. Flight was slightly delayed.
Then I saw him, pushing his baggage trolley and smiling at me. My heart raced, excited. He came closer to the glass wall that separated us from touching each other. He came with a big grin and sparks of light in his eyes. He looked like a little boy who just received his long waited Christmas present.
We thought we would cry when we see each other at the airport but we didn't. Just so delighted yet we have nothing much to say. I looked at him while we were in the cab heading to my place. My baby hasn't change except for his new haircut which makes him look so much younger (and cuter….and sweeter…). J
Finally we are back into each other's arms. Finally he's here with me….
It has been a month now. Living together with someone surely changes things around you. We have to take care of each other, and make sure that whatever we do does not create inconveniences to the other.
Some management change at work has given me a lot of pressures and I am very de-motivated. However, the new GM approved my application to take up a Diploma course in Business and Human Resources Management which starting in September for 18 months.
This will tie me to this company for another 1.5 years I guess. I hope things will be better for me then, it's either I sign up for another 12-month course or I quit and jump the boat.
My baby is still looking for job here. Our main concern is to get his SVP extension. We have planned a trip to Tioman in mid of August. I am going to take up Refresher Diving Course there and go for 2 boat dives.
Hopefully I can bring back some nice photos from our trip too. *grin*
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Everytime I see this pic, it gives me a chill to the spine. My right arm (I am seated) was bruised due to bite mark. I had a fight with my possessive ex-bf and bit my arms out of pure anger. :-(
Hello dudes and dudess... Since my boss left the company on 8th June, I am really bored at work. No more emails in my inbox (previously my boss will forward at least 20 emails in my inbox). I thought of changing job, but it's not the right time yet. Maybe in mid of 2008. Tomorrow, my baby will arrive from Germany. This time, he will stay here with me permanently. I am crossing my fingers now to hope that he will find a job in not time. There's so much to worry about but we both have faith that it will goes well for us. I didn't get good sleep last night, I don't know why. Was watching 'Law & Order' on Ch5 until I almost fall asleep around 12.30 midnight. The I switched off the TV and went to bed. The next day, I woke up at 6am! Immediately I turned on my PC and within 5 minutes, my baby MSN me.... I knew he's always there.
Below is my pic which he has modified to fit on his computer as wallpaper.  I had full-legs waxed and Brazillian at Strips during lunch break today. For that, it costs me S$102.00 (fortunately it was deducted from my member package). Tomorrow, I'm going to wash and blow my hair straight before I go to the airport to meet my baby and fetch him back to where I'm currently staying. *grin*
Exactly 7 days from today I will be celebrating my birthday. Time flies (lalat). I won't be in Singapore from tomorrow and will depart for Sarawak to spend some times with my family members. When I am away, I will not be online often like now. Some people must have noticed I am always 'ONLINE'. Sometimes I would even wake up in the middle of the night....then turn to my PC and check for any new messages on my Multiply...then go back to sleep again. I think I'm totally addicted to internet. Of course besides internet addiction, I'm using it to communicate with my darling..... always stick with my home laptop just to be there for him.. I planned to do some experimental shoots with my sisters and my 10yo niece. I'm not sure what I can do yet.. Anyway, if I am happy with the results of the shoots, I will surely share with the rest here. So stay tune! The month of JUNE is very special for me, because I'm getting older (and hopefully wiser), my darling is coming to be with me very soon (yayy!), my brother has returned to work in Singapore and of course, i'm going back to meet my sisters and my niece. The one that always cries whenever I'm leaving her. Till my return to Singapore on the 6th, I wish you all best of health and luck. Thanks for being my friends and supporting me. I'm sorry if I have offended anyone of you whether directly or indirectly. 
I'm so dead today. I should be at home hugging my bolster or something. No mood to work. 1) The new girl just joined last week called in sick twice! Nevermind, after that she requested this and that for her stationery, which, other staff doesn't even use. 2) My brother is now in JB, waiting for his Work Permit to start work with SMRT. He told me he shot a female 'ghost' the night before he flew to JB from Kuching. My dad and step-mum heard some weird 'calling' around 8pm. They believed it's the ghost that attack just 'men' and eats their testicles!! Believe it or not...up to you. 3) I'm going back to Sarawak on the 31st. Getting quite excited I guess. I miss my niece and my sisters. I want to do some photography project while back in my hometown. 4) Not forgetting this, I miss my baby. SO MUCH! 5) I want to jog at the community park near my HDB flat. But I am so hesitated right now after my first attempt 3 weeks ago gave me so much pain on my foot... :-( Okay lah...that's all for now... I wanna sleep...:-p
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This is latest pic taken by Bilal on 29th April. I just got one from his webpage. The rest are still with him.
With this, I have something to say. I don't have many friends and i don't regret it. You can say I'm anti-social or whatever, I don't care.
I don't want many friends, I just want quality friends. Even if just 1 or 2 persons.
Sometimes they just pretending to be kind, helpful, but at the end they used me. I know who are my true friends, none of them are in Multiply.
To name a few, my boss, my best friend Pitri, Vivian and Genevie. That's all I can name for now.
I helped a guy with his traffic fine once. He parked his car illegally and getting 6 demerit points. Since he almost hit his 'demerit quota', he asked for help to become his scapegoat. Since I do not drive in SG, I told him i don't mind to bear the demerit points for him and so he wrote in to Traffic Police with my particulars as the driver for the day the traffic offence took place.
Fortunately, because i've kept a clean traffic record, I was cleared from getting 6 demerit points with just a warning.
Now, this same guy is my casting agent, still owe me about S$650 (S$500 for Acting Lesson fee and S$150 for my 5 roles (acting sessions). I tried to ask him for the payment and he kept giving excuses.
I'm not going to ask anymore. I'm very disappointed with this guy. Told me he has a joint venture with Aaron Aziz, I don't know what is true anymore. So disappointed...
Okay. Next thing, please just add me in Multiply as ONLINE BUDDY. Don't go too far although you may mean it as a joke.
Thanks for reading.
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I'm leaving for Jakarta this Sunday. From Jakarta, me and John will depart for Belitung on early morning of Monday. I will not be accessing my emails nor my Multiply until I returned to Singapore on 7th April.
Still I'm gonna repeat the same little warnings, if you want to add me you must have at least a headshot and a decent self introduction. Still, I add only those whom I think good to add.
Secondly, if you hate me (for whatever reasons). Don't step into any of my page. Save your time!
Thirdly, don't send me love letters. I only LOVE ONE MAN!
Fourthly, don't send me Personal Message unless it's something about photography because I don't entertain irrelavances.
Lastly, thanks for visiting and I appreciate all your feedbacks and comments. PHOTOGRAPHERS are cool and interesting people with high creativity and imagination! 
CS
Here are my criteria, if YOU want to be in my friends' list.
1) Decent self-introduction (at least)
2) Profile Pictures (because I do not like a question mark on my friend list).
3) No porn nudes, no sexual content, no racism...
I want to know something about you before I accept you as friend. Please at least introduce yourself. Work, hobby, family...etc..
Before I click 'Accept', I will go into your profile and check on all the above. If you do not have a profile pic, I will NOT accept you. Those without profile pic in my existing friend list are personal friends or friends of my sister.
Sometimes, I may not be satisfied with your profile but I will still accept you as friend however I will continue to monitor your activities, what you blog about and what you post online. Also, what comment you left for me. If I feel that you are being sacarstic, giving bad comment or 'over-flirt', I will delete you off my friend list.
I know some of you are here just to read my entries and check my pictures, I am totally fine with that and I appreciate all your supports. But please DO NOT use me to connect to other people or promote your indecent profile.
I am NOT here to offend anyone, but still I have to protect my rights and my interest if that's okay with all of you.
I APOLOGISE IF I DELETED YOU OFF MY FRIEND NETWORK. YOU CAN TRY TO ADD ME AGAIN, AND I WILL RE-CONSIDER IF I THINK YOU DESERVE A SECOND CHANCE.
Actually, you should be thankful that I did not 'Block' you. You still can view my page anyway. 
Thank you for reading and appreciate your kind understanding.
Regards,
Carol
PARIS: The Internet has given birth to a quirky range of modern addictions and maladies, the British weekly New Scientist says in its Christmas issue published this Saturday.
They include these:
- EGO-SURFING: When you frequently check your name and reputation on the Internet.
- BLOG STREAKING: "Revealing secrets or personal information online which for everybody's sake would be best kept private."
- CRACKBERRY: "The curse of the modern executive: not being able to stop checking your BlackBerry, even at your grandmother's funeral." (A BlackBerry is a popular handheld device that can be used for phoning, emailing and web-browsing).
- GOOGLE-STALKING: Defined as "snooping online on old friends, colleagues or first dates."
- CYBERCHONDRIA: "A headache and a particular rash at the same time? Extensive online research tells you it must be cancer."
- PHOTOLURKING: Flicking through a photo album of someone you've never met.
- WIKIPEDIHOLISM: Excess devotion to contributing to the online collaborative encyclopaedia, Wikipedia. (Wikipedia even has a page where you can test whether you're an addict: (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wikipedia:Are-You-a-Wikipediholic-Test).
- CHEESEPODDING: Downloading of a song "so cheesy that you could cover it in plastic wrap and sell it at the deli counter." Cheesepodders are especially vulnerable to soft-rock favourites from the 1970s.
Sometimes, I tend to write whatever that come across my mind without thinking twice about the consequence.
But I have the habit of reading my own blog time and time again and if I think the content is too aggressive or 'bold', I will either restrict it to certain ppl or delete it off from active posting.
I personally admire those who speaks their mind. Those who can write well and express their thought clearly. I may not be very good in expressing myself but at least I do get compliments from certain people and was encouraged to continue doing what I am doing.
I think we all have something to say about someone or something. For me, I keep it to 'general' discussion and without a direct mention on somebody or something that may seem obvious as an accusation or complaint towards that subject.
Of course, I do not deny the fact that I am NOT happy with many things and hence I need to voice out my anger. One of the thing I'm not happy with is my 'self'. :-P
Still, I am thankful and glad that through blogging and internet profiling, I have met many people from different walk of life who have shared with me on their perspective on life, social, relationship, politic, health, blog.....and the list goes on.
Thank you guys!! For all the supports and encouragement. I would also apologise if I have said or done something that may have hurt anyone of you direct or indirectly. It is not intentional from my side (unless I hate you). :-P
Stay away from the HAZE!!!
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